Every day right now is so much fun. I feel like one lucky girl. Yesterday I started a new job, love it! Then attended a wonderful raw potluck with some beautiful people, nabbed the last half hour only though. Then joy, oh joy went dancing. Amazing sound, in my little corner next to the huge speaker going to some beautiful ecstatic place in my heart, and really getting down to the music that I love! Then bumped into a dear friend and we went off on a 3 hour walk around Clapton in true Situationist style, talking, talking and talking, kindred souls connecting, different paths, same vision. Both of us are tapping into the freedom of joyful living and embracing new experiences, and finally accepting the potential within ourselves, reaching out and tapping into the wonderful sap of life, but in very different ways. Another reminder that the choices in life are infinite and varied, as extensive as the imagination. And the choices we make allow us to connect with what is already within us, compassion, love, creativity. I think these are tools that allow us to create our world - love creates love, passing . So that my focus, to continue evolving and on this path, continue making my dreams real and inpsiring others along the way, if i can!
Inspirational fact, I have never been able to do all-nighters. Used to work in a nightlub, and by 2am, I was the grumpiest, most dispondant barmaid in the world. The past two nights I have been dancing, laughing and chatting all night long without so much as a stifled yawn. Even the night bus home has been lovely. I am finally getting the whole energy thing of raw food and I feel amazing and joyful and happy that my body seems to be ticking away so well. Energy has always be an issue for me, but now I seem to be sleeping much less and going like the Duracell Bunny, feels good.
dimanche 13 avril 2008
vendredi 11 avril 2008
Wild, Crazy Poppy-ness
Crazy energy right now its mental. Soaring high on life. I feel ready to explode with the surplus of electricity pouring through my body, unless I find a practical outlet for it -that is! I sometimes crave heavy, stodgy cooked food, an antidote to this hyperactivity, it feels almost too much - like I am on amphetamines. I am literally buzzing to a different beat to those around me, constant silliness, cracks and frenetic movement. Feeling like the kid, for whom the world turns round her centre. Such a contrast to JFing. Am so far for introspection, and more living in NOW, relishing the ecstatic joy of the present, no room for responsibility, no room for boredom and bullshit, purlease! I feel like the loudmouth missy that was always in trouble at school - BE-lieve, no teachers to tell me off now.
Going out to dance all night! Me, myself, that little corner of Plastic People on a Friday night, and meditate on the reverberations of heavy bass. Laaaaa! Oh sweet joy, if this is where its at, its all mighty good.
Staple foods: Marinated Kale, Pea Shoots, Garlic Shoots, Alfalfa, Spinach, Sauerkraut, Cucumbers, Avocado, Lemons, Hemp Oil, Hemp Seeds, Dried Figs, Cacao and Wild Honey. Green Juice, Nettle Tea, Lemonade and Mango Smoothies. Mmmmmmm!
Tune of the moment: If This Ain't Love, Nicole Willis & the Soul Investigators
Going out to dance all night! Me, myself, that little corner of Plastic People on a Friday night, and meditate on the reverberations of heavy bass. Laaaaa! Oh sweet joy, if this is where its at, its all mighty good.
Staple foods: Marinated Kale, Pea Shoots, Garlic Shoots, Alfalfa, Spinach, Sauerkraut, Cucumbers, Avocado, Lemons, Hemp Oil, Hemp Seeds, Dried Figs, Cacao and Wild Honey. Green Juice, Nettle Tea, Lemonade and Mango Smoothies. Mmmmmmm!
Tune of the moment: If This Ain't Love, Nicole Willis & the Soul Investigators
jeudi 10 avril 2008
Giving Tuppence
Early morning discussions with the twin about care, love consideration. Used to be work as a pastry chef, I love perfection and care put into the small details of things. I think that little love that goes into the preparation of a 'tartelette aux fraises' makes all the difference. I notice less of the love going into the food I buy, the clothes I buy and the restaurants I go to.
Sometimes when I waitress, and I see the chef screaming at his sous-chef and I ask myself how on earth can you serve that food to another person, the food that you have prepared and poisoned with anger. And sometimes I just look at the food on the plate, and I ask myself how can you serve such uncared for, sloppy food and charge so much - I see it everywhere and feel a sadness at the loss of care and integrity in industry. I hesitate to 'blame' commerce, because I can not believe that such negates honesty, love and integrity. In fact, I believe that when I go to a restaurant, I am paying for that somebody to prepare with equal care the dish as they would for their loved ones or family - and yet I can say that the past six years that I have worked in restaurants I have seen only one place prepare food with such care and love for what goes out on the plate in the wonderful Rose Bakery. I know that when I go to the farmer's market, Perry Court Farm give me the same amazing pears, carrots, beets and spinach that feed their own children and I feel gratified for the care with which they pick the best ones out for me. It transforms my whole relationship to the food, and makes me happy to part with my money for that. My salary is afterall, a product of my time, of my efforts and of my giving to others with equal care of their needs and desires as humans and as paying customers, that as such I can't stand to provide any less than the best. I quit working for Wholefoods after one week, understanding that money ruled over integrity for them - their daily food wastage could have filled a hundred homeless bellies alone, I just can't represent that - it feels so wrong!
Traditionally clothing and cooking were acts of community sharing and love. The effort that was placed into preparing a meal, weaving a dress that was made to last, or a scarf for a loved one was prepared in the context of caring, creative giving. If each act was fulfilled with full awareness of its journey - from my heart to yours, I think we would feel a lot closer as humans. Many talk about our loss of connection with nature, provoking a looser connection to the fundamental axis of our existence. Perhaps it comes more down to time; running around like headless chicken we lose sense of the value of this very moment here and now, always projecting our minds to the future, turning our actions into drawn out lists of things to do, just so the end can justify the means, we can pay the bills. Passion is key, living every minute and living each other with love.
My brother blames Tescos this morning, another blames McDonalds and another blames the 'system' conspiring against us. It seems so futile to talk of systems, of organisations. We're all human, and I am in to dealing on human levels now, building communities and putting my energy into making grow the things I love. More to come soon...Love!!!
Sometimes when I waitress, and I see the chef screaming at his sous-chef and I ask myself how on earth can you serve that food to another person, the food that you have prepared and poisoned with anger. And sometimes I just look at the food on the plate, and I ask myself how can you serve such uncared for, sloppy food and charge so much - I see it everywhere and feel a sadness at the loss of care and integrity in industry. I hesitate to 'blame' commerce, because I can not believe that such negates honesty, love and integrity. In fact, I believe that when I go to a restaurant, I am paying for that somebody to prepare with equal care the dish as they would for their loved ones or family - and yet I can say that the past six years that I have worked in restaurants I have seen only one place prepare food with such care and love for what goes out on the plate in the wonderful Rose Bakery. I know that when I go to the farmer's market, Perry Court Farm give me the same amazing pears, carrots, beets and spinach that feed their own children and I feel gratified for the care with which they pick the best ones out for me. It transforms my whole relationship to the food, and makes me happy to part with my money for that. My salary is afterall, a product of my time, of my efforts and of my giving to others with equal care of their needs and desires as humans and as paying customers, that as such I can't stand to provide any less than the best. I quit working for Wholefoods after one week, understanding that money ruled over integrity for them - their daily food wastage could have filled a hundred homeless bellies alone, I just can't represent that - it feels so wrong!
Traditionally clothing and cooking were acts of community sharing and love. The effort that was placed into preparing a meal, weaving a dress that was made to last, or a scarf for a loved one was prepared in the context of caring, creative giving. If each act was fulfilled with full awareness of its journey - from my heart to yours, I think we would feel a lot closer as humans. Many talk about our loss of connection with nature, provoking a looser connection to the fundamental axis of our existence. Perhaps it comes more down to time; running around like headless chicken we lose sense of the value of this very moment here and now, always projecting our minds to the future, turning our actions into drawn out lists of things to do, just so the end can justify the means, we can pay the bills. Passion is key, living every minute and living each other with love.
My brother blames Tescos this morning, another blames McDonalds and another blames the 'system' conspiring against us. It seems so futile to talk of systems, of organisations. We're all human, and I am in to dealing on human levels now, building communities and putting my energy into making grow the things I love. More to come soon...Love!!!
Losing Contact
After last week's depressing post, I wanted to touch base to let y'all know I am still alive and kicking. JFing has been broken temporarily, pending prosperity and a little more ease in my financial shituation. Spring is here and with it kilos of fresh luscious greens for the cheap; divine. Can't stop humming in the beautiful sunshine, giving and receiving beautiful smiles all around.
Starting to feel in two-minds about this blog. Firstly the name, juicefeast restricts it to certain niche in time from which it has evolved and I think it needs to evolve now too. Secondly, its content, in all it graphic honesty is aimed at a small circle of readers, friends shall we say, whom I felt very at ease with discussing the intimate details of my 'raw' experiences becuase I know that they're on the same journey, leaving me beautiful comments and sharing their own precious paths. I have since discovered that it is quite accessible to others, my stats have rocketed with the imminent opening of a certain restaurant, and I have noticed people from that particular domain checking the content with the incessancy of the intigued, enthralled or the paranoid - leave a comment, if you will Joe. I have also noticed people coming onto my blog typing in my full name or the name of people in my family, and I feel quite exposed! I am not sure I feel so at ease with the information I put out there and I feel a sudden impulse to control or pull back in the the rope that I have naively thrown out there - not quite grasping that anything I throw into cyber space becomes totally public and indelible to anyone who wants to read it! And here's my typing away at all the intimate detail of my existence, hmmm! Hence my quietness these past few days, pondering 'me', divinely indulgent introspection and taking some time in Paris with my sweet. How restorative love is, one doesn't realise its missing, and then boom, you realise wowwwww, this is love, yeah, we're talking Jill-Bolte Taylor, right-brained euphoria!
Starting to feel in two-minds about this blog. Firstly the name, juicefeast restricts it to certain niche in time from which it has evolved and I think it needs to evolve now too. Secondly, its content, in all it graphic honesty is aimed at a small circle of readers, friends shall we say, whom I felt very at ease with discussing the intimate details of my 'raw' experiences becuase I know that they're on the same journey, leaving me beautiful comments and sharing their own precious paths. I have since discovered that it is quite accessible to others, my stats have rocketed with the imminent opening of a certain restaurant, and I have noticed people from that particular domain checking the content with the incessancy of the intigued, enthralled or the paranoid - leave a comment, if you will Joe. I have also noticed people coming onto my blog typing in my full name or the name of people in my family, and I feel quite exposed! I am not sure I feel so at ease with the information I put out there and I feel a sudden impulse to control or pull back in the the rope that I have naively thrown out there - not quite grasping that anything I throw into cyber space becomes totally public and indelible to anyone who wants to read it! And here's my typing away at all the intimate detail of my existence, hmmm! Hence my quietness these past few days, pondering 'me', divinely indulgent introspection and taking some time in Paris with my sweet. How restorative love is, one doesn't realise its missing, and then boom, you realise wowwwww, this is love, yeah, we're talking Jill-Bolte Taylor, right-brained euphoria!
mercredi 2 avril 2008
Day Three!!!
I had heard it said somewhere tha bad luck always comes in threes. Well thrice it has, definitely a funny day for me. I wonder if these personal challenges are trying to tell me something, or maybe my itcing desire to run away is using/consciously creating these mishaps to take me to where I want to go, clue; miles away from home! I don't get London, still. I don't get why I work like a dog just to live (cue; shelter, food and water) giving me two precious days each week to actually live my life the way I want to live it. And no one is keeping me here, but myself oh, and the ever-expanding hole in my pocket. I walked down Oxford Street today and it all seems ever so surreal. I felt the wages in my pocket and tried to intice myself into some material pleasure, but I wasn't having any of it. It all leaves me rather cold, ever-more so on the juice feast, where the enthralling idea of stopping of somewhere to eat or shop for supper goes out the window too. The highlight of my day is my enema, my run in the woods, and me-time at home on my own. So am I wasting precious time waitressing doing rubbish jobs for the lowest pay to fund this life? The clock is ticking and I know I am not "100% behind" the life that I am leading right now. What to do? Hoping to find some inspiration from within, but alas lack of money creates an impending danger for the longevity of this Juice Feast.
Seeking simplicity too...(thanks H)
Today
ll Lemon and MSM and Psyllium Water
2l Green Juice: Cucumber, Parsley, Spring Greens, Lettuce, Apple
0.5l Carrot Juice
1l Orange Juice
Enema and Skin Brush
mardi 1 avril 2008
Saf and My Blog
A case of the tail between the legs tonight. Just got sacked from Saf, and I feel a bit miserable! Apparently my blog is better referenced than I thought, and the few throwaway comments that I wrote about Saf, were found out by the management, typing "Saf Restaurant, London" into a search engine and I found a message on my blog this mornning from a guy called Joe saying
lets put it nice AND EASY. HMMM.. HOW I CAN PUT THIS.....
your fired
(Though no one actually took responsibility for the message, the manager said it was a friend of his who typed it in from the office computer whilst playing around last night...hmmm!)
It transpired that along with the comment and the fact that I didn't want to eat the 'cooked' vegan food in food tasting (what did they expect - they knew I was 100% raw!), my manager didn't think I was "100% behind Saf", and he didn't want to keep me for that reason. Fair enough...I think I would have fired me had I found out about the commments, namely the management not taking raw food seriously and offering us coffee and sandwiches after a four hour talk on the virtues of eating raw. Its another case of my having to watch what I say, a lifelong problem for miss loudmouth here. I think another issue might have been not going out and getting trashed with everybody last night for 'team building'. Now why has team building in the restaurant industry always been about getting so inebriated that you are no longer even hearing the person next to you speak? Seriously contemplating getting out of London again, I wonder where I can connect with people in the mainstream of a working environment without resorting to the pub.
Anyway what I love, is how well referenced my blog is that typing in Saf brings you up on my page. Thats why I am saying Saf a lot tonight, because with its imminent opening ,there are going to be lots of people typing Saf into search engines, and hopefully directed towards my blog. All the better - if you want a real raw food experience read this ;). Now, I could go wild now and say what I want about Saf, but really I wish them the best, I hope Saf does really well and continues to spread raw food into the mainstream.
Raw Foodists, if you want gastronomy in London check out Inspiral Lounge if you haven't already , this is raw food to go mad about, get high on and feel love prepared with love by Joel!
Juice Feasting is going wonderfully, stripping the layers already. I feel strangely vulnerable, but I am loving that 'open heart' feeling again. Feeling emotions literally flow through me like gale-force winds. Loving, loving, loving green juice again, and expelling a lot of mucus from the chest. Planning a trip to Paris this week and I am worried about the big responsibility of juicing whilst travelling. Long thing...But hey. Best moment of the day, sitting on the tube sipping heavenly green juice and listening to Aretha Franklin sing "Dr Feelgood" - oh yeah!
Today I had
1l Water, Lemon and MSM
3l GVJ - Celery, Spinach, Parsley, Cucumber, Lettuce and Carrot - feels soooo good!
1l Carrot, Apple and Ginger - Tasted like sherbet!
Enema and Skin Brush
lets put it nice AND EASY. HMMM.. HOW I CAN PUT THIS.....
your fired
(Though no one actually took responsibility for the message, the manager said it was a friend of his who typed it in from the office computer whilst playing around last night...hmmm!)
It transpired that along with the comment and the fact that I didn't want to eat the 'cooked' vegan food in food tasting (what did they expect - they knew I was 100% raw!), my manager didn't think I was "100% behind Saf", and he didn't want to keep me for that reason. Fair enough...I think I would have fired me had I found out about the commments, namely the management not taking raw food seriously and offering us coffee and sandwiches after a four hour talk on the virtues of eating raw. Its another case of my having to watch what I say, a lifelong problem for miss loudmouth here. I think another issue might have been not going out and getting trashed with everybody last night for 'team building'. Now why has team building in the restaurant industry always been about getting so inebriated that you are no longer even hearing the person next to you speak? Seriously contemplating getting out of London again, I wonder where I can connect with people in the mainstream of a working environment without resorting to the pub.
Anyway what I love, is how well referenced my blog is that typing in Saf brings you up on my page. Thats why I am saying Saf a lot tonight, because with its imminent opening ,there are going to be lots of people typing Saf into search engines, and hopefully directed towards my blog. All the better - if you want a real raw food experience read this ;). Now, I could go wild now and say what I want about Saf, but really I wish them the best, I hope Saf does really well and continues to spread raw food into the mainstream.
Raw Foodists, if you want gastronomy in London check out Inspiral Lounge if you haven't already , this is raw food to go mad about, get high on and feel love prepared with love by Joel!
Juice Feasting is going wonderfully, stripping the layers already. I feel strangely vulnerable, but I am loving that 'open heart' feeling again. Feeling emotions literally flow through me like gale-force winds. Loving, loving, loving green juice again, and expelling a lot of mucus from the chest. Planning a trip to Paris this week and I am worried about the big responsibility of juicing whilst travelling. Long thing...But hey. Best moment of the day, sitting on the tube sipping heavenly green juice and listening to Aretha Franklin sing "Dr Feelgood" - oh yeah!
Today I had
1l Water, Lemon and MSM
3l GVJ - Celery, Spinach, Parsley, Cucumber, Lettuce and Carrot - feels soooo good!
1l Carrot, Apple and Ginger - Tasted like sherbet!
Enema and Skin Brush
Day One (or was it?)
Nettles for Holi!
Ahhh, I forgot what is was to be juice feasting. My mind created a romantic reverie of what it though it was and then suddenly I remembered what it really was to be out there stranded in the city with only two litres fo juice, a painful tooth, stress and the desire to eat a humungous salad. Today, I am going to be well organised with regards to al that, JFing is way too important to squander for lack of organisation! And I caved in, running to the supermarket to grab pineapples, grapefruits and any sweets that would satisfy my hunger cravings, a few grapes entered the mouth!!! Then the mind went into freak mode, I don't want to be feasting, remembering all the negative bits about the last feast. Still that was Day One, and today is new days, and fresh resolutions. I felt so great when I tapped into the blogosphere and suddenly I was alive to the reasons why I am doing this again. So here's to amazing days.
Check out the amazing adventures of Holi, my wild nettle foraging, hippie JF partner in the Lake District. I am ecstatic about us sharing this adventure together, it will be interesting to mutually support and inspire. Amazing to have found another beautiful soul in the blogosphere, blessings!!
Yesterday I had
1l Water, Lemon, Cayenne and MSM
2l GVJ: Parsley, Celery, Spinach, Romaine, Carrot
0.5l Pineapple Juice
Sucked the sweet nectar of three ruby red grapefruits!
3 red grapes down the hatch :O
2l nettle tea
Skin Brushing, Contrast Showers and Enema
Supplements: Psyllium, MSM
Serious detox yesterday!! Woah...
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