Going Forth with Prunes

I didn't have a chance to write yesterday as my computer has crashed and I like to take my time to write my posts ;). I have some news to break, and it comes with a little trepidation to announce that I have be moved away from the juicing community and back to solids. This all feels very sudden to me but I know that my body had moved out of the cleansing phase these past four days and that I had reached a plateau. I have lost my appetite and am feeling weak and dizzy with headaches. My first reaction was to question what I had done wrong, sifting through all the possible traps to suggest why I couldn't go just a little bit longer. Now, Carrie summed it up just perfectly for me, "numbers mean nought", when the body is ready to move on you better well listen to those signs, or you risk doing yourself some harm. Because this process is exactly about reconnecting with the messages that the body gives and creating a loving relationship between actions and effects, internally, externally and outwardly. Thus its seems that there is no fixed time, just tune in to your intuition. Feasting is tool that I will use time and time again, and I think that each one must vary so much with regards to results and time sequences. Thats what I enjoy so much, you can focus on what you want from the process, invest love, positivity and work hard to sustain it but you can't help but love the twists and turns and changes that this process reveals. It is never ending and you never, never really know what stored emotions, matter, inspirations or forgotten passions are to emerge to the surface next. The key for me has been to love the process and relish each day, and I feel that I have got so much love back - its all a bit Solaris-esque!

If I am honest, it was a little bit of a struggle to pull myself away from the feast. I am still coming to terms with it. It has been such a wonderful holiday in this marvellous community that I did not want it to end. I know that 92 days is just a number, and the process varies for each person but I relished the time set aside during that period to savour the experience, to go deeper spiritually and to 'selfishly' indulge in my own 'quest' - so to speak. I was not prepared mentally for the end, it sprung up on me like, for lack of a better expression, what an inexperienced teenage boy must experience when the act of lovemaking is comes to an end prematurely. This particular experience has certainly been of great intensity but oh, how I wish I could spend a little moment longer lanuguishing in its palpable joy. I feel better in making an acknowledgement that there is no 'end' to becoming a better, more receptive and more giving person, this journey has simply been the opening of the door into a Wonderland that I am free to explore because I have envisioned it and now have the key to it. It is still part of me. It is now more a question of using the spiritual tools I have gleaned such as postive thinking to tap into the infinite flow of love inside and outside to guide me towards the things that I truly want to do. I intend to teach what I have learned and lean towards a working vocation in Natural Health. I am keen to practise sustainable living and natural farming, and I want to practise open and loving communication with others. I feel blessed to have met all you other wonderful people who share the same vision as I, as it has renewed and fuelled my faith in this path, I do hope we can all meet up one day!!

Yesterday was a day of deep reflection for me. I knew when I woke up that it was soon time to break the feast, and I wanted to express gratitude for all that this process had given me. It was perhaps the most joyful day so far of the whole feast. I was very light for not having drunk enough juice, and as such I felt such an open channel to my heart, I was smiling all day. I don't think I have ever smiled so much at the world in all my life as I have these last two months! I am so grateful for this juice feast to have got me out of a rut, feeling out of touch with the world, frustrated in my relationships with many people, helpless, joyless, directionless, foggy and confused. The change has been immense. Losing weight was also a focus at the beginning though to be honest I don't think I have lost much at all. And ironically it is so far from my mind now, I have learnt to love myself, and acceptance of my body is a part of that. I feel good acknowledging that I am more a Betty Page kinda girl, and feeling very beautiful on that point. There have been a few challenges on the way, but they all seem to be for the better. Namely, my family's issue with my lifestyle is no longer a problem for me. My confronting them, has forced me to open up instead of hiding behind cached versions of me, and has allowed me to discuss and understand their concerns, creating a more profound link with honesty. I feel so much less fearful in my approach problems, and know that if I want something now, I have to ask for it. And that goes for love too.

Diet-wise I never thought I would say this but I am going to keep it very liquid for the time being, juice feasting once a week and continuing with the Lemon Water MSM, 1l Green Juice and Skin Brushing as a daily routine. I also look forward to continuing to support my local farmers, and feel very confident in the effect of the Global Juice Feast on the farming communities - lets continue to create waves!

Prunes this morning was a little bit of an anti-climax. I jumped out of bed at the crack of dawn with an excitement akin to those tingles I had as a kid when Christmas sprung up. I did my Lemon Water MSM and cracked of into the woods for a very magical reunion with my beloved food. The taste was just not how I remembered them but I put this down to my body being a little off right now, not having much of an apetite. The sweetness was very sickly and I was so very thirsty after, even after drinking all the soak water. I was craving a geen juice for balance! So thats what I did and then I decided that magical Green Juice is going to remain a staple part of my diet for the forseeable future.

I know this post is a bit long - I just wanted to languish in the joyous ecstacy of these past 49 days a little longer. Now, to embrace the next step of this journey, still peeling at the layers of this great big onion.

One big thank you, for the lovely bloggers who contributed their time, knowledge and support and comments - you guys, have been of unquestionable strength to me throughout this, and to the Global Juice Feasters, I look forward to following you all through this hero's journey. But most of all to David and Katrina, you have given me such a wonderful tool in my life, I will always be grateful to you for your knowledge, research and for spreading this message of love.

Ecstatic Blissful Love...

Today I had

1l Lemon Water, MSM and Cayenne
Prunes and Soak Water
1.5l Spring Greens, Cucumber and Apple Juice


Yesterday I had

3l Lemon Water, Ginger and MSM
0.8l Pinapple, Kale, Cucumber and Celery Juice