Finding Strength, Day 48

I am happy to report that I am nearly back on form. I had not drunk any juice is 48 hours but tonight I managed or am in the process of downing almost 3 litres, now ain't that a feat! On top of that yesterday I could barely walk, and I nearly passed out getting out the bath but today I managed to walk 2km with three bags full of juice produce! Hurray, how the body heals with a little bit of love and rest. Thank you all for your lovely, lovely comments - I am so grateful to be part of such a loving community. I am all love again, which is such a transformation as I had a harsh reminder yesterday of how when the body suffers, it is hard for the mind to stay positive. I emailed David and Katrina Rainoshek today for some advice, as I was starting to feel concerned. I was absolutely touched by their kindness and the generosity of their advice - they are such lovely beings, and I feel like part of a big, loving juicy family. Honestly it is loving bods like these who can really make a change in the world, I strongly believe in that and I am so excited to be part of the Global Juice Feast, we are physically enacting in ourselves the change that we want to see in the world, leading by example. I really hope that this blip is just a healing crisis that will pass with time. David advised me that I should not really be water fasting at this stage in the feast, so I am making a big effort to regain my appetite for juice, starting with the sweeties, tonight. I am also going to take some B12, because I might have a deficiency here. I am, however open to the possibility that I might break the feast if I don't feel better in a few days. We will see how it goes. I think the important is being open to your body, she knows best and will guide me towards the right decision with due course.
This juice feasting experience has been absolutely magical, I relish each day seeing another layer unravel, going deeper into the space in my heart and feeling love and joy. There is also safety in juicing, I don't need to think about food, and when I am hungry I just sip a juice and I feel instantly better - no bad food combinations, no overeating, no questioning whether I am hungry or just thirsty, more space in my head, more time and such clarity of thought. Now I am in the swing of things, juicing feels so effortless. Obviously, the journey will continue on the other side but I just hope that my time to break has not come yet! On the other hand, I feel that so much has changed for me during this period that I ought to count my blessings for achieving so much, so far and tuck away that ego! I will be gaging it over the next few days with the help of the lovely Rainosheks!
Yesterday I had a little winge about my family's support. My dad's girlfriend later remarked that she had noticed my skin looking radiant (she is a former beautician) and that I looked slim and healthy. This little comment changed my dad's perspective and today we actually managed to have an open discussion about the feast and I felt a little more support and receptivity. I am thrilled about this and happy to demonstrate the positive health effects through wordless motions. It proves potential in every situation if you invest the faith of your conviction.
On that tip, I am happy to announce a reconciliation between my other half and I. As I once expressed, he is a beautiful angel but I found then that the situation was not working. This is not in keeping with my mode of thought that with love and openness, everything is possible. I believe that when you give your love to somebody, that you do everything in your power to keep that love. Love is sacred, a blessing and a gift from God - in love all things are possible. I feel deep remorse for walking away from that, for succumbing to my feelings of hopelessness. Nothing is hopeless unless you deem it be so. We are creative beings, and are responsible for the conditions we create in our lives. Isn't that empowering to know? I have had a moment to reflect and some space but with greater clarity I can see that I do not want the love that we built to die. We created that love like a child and it is our responsibility to conserve it. Our conversations touch me immensely now, I feel hope for our future together and joy in the act of rebuilding love, an infinite source of energy, like the sun. Many of the things I say now were taught to me by David, a deeply spiritual and beautiful person. I am lucky to have found him and intent on keeping him in my life.

Phew, what a post. All this love talk is making me feel much more vibrant and alive!

Today I had:

2l Orange, Grapefruit and Lemon Juice (my favourite!)
1l Carrot Juice
Enema and many hot baths!
I mean to go back on to strengthening green juice tomorrow, I was just taking it easy with some comfort juice today.