Spaced Out (22 Days)

Today could have been a horrendous day, had I let it. My juicer broke, midway through the first juice of the day leaving only 200ml of pure watercress juice to sustain me for the rest of the day. My boss told me unequivocally and rather aggressively that he is very near to getting rid of my behind -I am a terrible waitress so I do not blame him! I consoled myself in trecking to the other side of Paris, to buy some coconut water to keep me for today and tomorrow until I get my juicer sorted, but alas not ONE single coconut in the whole of China Town due to the festivities! Meanwhile durian was teasing my hungry tummy with her delectable smell, and I could have for a second regretted being on a juice feast. And right now, I feel so high on orange juice and honey, lemon water that I might float up, up, up and away! I am happy, in love and enjoying every minute of this floaty trip. I feel compassion, and pleasure in human connection, and am supping every second of experience that is thrown my way with gratitude and delight. So, if I lose this job, I shall float somewhere further down the river, more beautiful in my little boat. For now, as I calm myself on balancing warm water, lemon juice and ginger, I can take joy in going through all the happenings of my day, then letting go. I received Will Bowen's "A Complaint Free World" today in the post - thankyou Katrina for the tip. So, I shall now be on a non-complaining fast aswell. Its all reminds me that this feast is so much more than correcting eating patterns, it is the occasion for introspection and greater self-knowledge. Spiritual, emotional, physical needs are all interconnected thus when you start to deal with one hinge, the others invariably volunteer themselves for more pressing attention. I am loving being conscious of the whole workings of body and mind, it makes life more lucid when in control of one's apparatus. Carrie spoke of lucid dreams earlier, well has anyone been experiencing lucid daydreams/thoughts? I get memories of yonks back that come to me in clear day, that are so vivid that its as if I am reliving them in whole. I like these very much. I guess everything we experience; present, past and future are all interconnected in our consciousness- even if we think that they ought to belong in a chronological niche - so that all makes sense. Lots of love.

Today I had:
Waaaay too many squeezy oranges and grapefruits, lemons and honey.
A few spoonfuls of spirulina
200 ml of undiluted watercress juice