Thank you all for your kind, supportive comments. I am going through the motions today but I think that is perfectly healthy and am sure that I will be embracing my daily blessings soon. I find that coming out of a relationship throws up a detox that is totally equatable with juice feasting. One moment you are fine, the next you are pouring out something that you didn't even know you had inside you! Why do I find it so difficult? I think I have an inbuilt fear of suffering, that prevents me from allowing myself to go through the motions. The slightest inkling of pain an I am reaching out mentally for a cure; food, picking up the phone an reconciling with the man concerned, running away...I was trying so hard to block out the emotions, that I even considered breaking the feast as if that would make things more 'comfortable' for me. My relationship with food has always been based on blocking out feelings, an excess of sadness, trepidation, even joy and I would turn to food to sober me. That is why I mean to continue because these challenges are allowing me to confront my comfort zones and build my strength. I believe I might have stayed in a relationship that didn't work because I was scared of the reality of reconstructing my life alone. Fear prevented me from taking my life in my hands and following my heart. Today without warning I broke out into tears, it felt so good to feel the pain running through me and finding release. I learnt right then to allow things to pass their rightful channels and not to be scared of the suffering, because thats the only way to get them out. So here's to letting those waters to run clear.
Today I had
250ml Orange Juice
250ml Grapefruit Juice
1l Water, Lemon, Honey, Psyllium and MSM
Well, still not doing very well...I mean to go and get an adaptor so I can plug in my juicer to a English power socket and then I will try to get as much as I can of my daily intake in this evening. Ironically the past few days of citrus juicing and minimal juice intake has really been cleansing for me, and I am eliminating a huge amount from my colon.
3 comments:
Poppy, you have such a core of inner strength and beauty, that has revealed itself through you words all along this journey in infinite ways.....this pure and sincere source within you will see you through these difficult painful times.....and even though sometimes you will think you can't bear it anymore, you will and it will pass through you.......and out......
You are a 'Shakti" - a shining force of creativity and manifestation.....unfold your new world, as you Will.....
With much love and tenderness, and a big warm hug.....
xxx Neeta
Poppy, you are so blessed to feel joy through the pain. Funny--or not so funny--how inner detox manifests itself outside, how detox of surroundings similarly triggers more inner detox, and how the outer&inner begin to cooperate.
Everything rises and passes away, and your resilience will see you through. You are a glorious light for the world!
With a big hug and much love,
Jenna xx
Neeta, what a blessing it is to know you, bringing so much joy and love and - your words give me strength and hope. Incommensurate gratitude and love back to you, Poppy x
Jenna, yes, thank you! I am definitely feeling spun, inside, outside, upside and all around! But with patience the inner and outer do cooperate. Love to ya fellow juicer, happy to be sharing this wonderful journey with you. xx Poppy
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